Metamorphosis Part 2

As exciting as it is to know my purpose, and begin my journey to become a worshiper, that isn't the reason why Jeff and I moved back to Orange County. Originally, we both thought that we would continue to travel, and when the time came for me to go to Bethel, we would make that part of our travels. But God's plans are not our plans...

As we continued traveling, we continued praying for God to reveal to us where He wanted us to go, and what He wanted us to do.  We had an opportunity to stop back in California to visit family and friend's, which was fantastic! We decided we would stay about a month, and then head back out to explore the world. Little did we know that God had something else up his sleeve...a lot of something else's. 

It was so nice to visit family and friend's after not seeing them for about two months. We celebrated birthdays, went to church events, and had time to relax and enjoy their company. One night we went to my parent's church while they were having a guest speaker. His name is Ed Traut, and he is one of the most accurate Prophets I've had the chance to meet. He has spoken into my parents lives several times, and been right about it. The Lord speaks through Ed in amazing ways, and it's just a wonderful experience to have. You can look more into his ministry here.

A couple days leading up to that church event, I was praying that God would reveal to me, in detail, what He wanted me to do with worship and other things. I was expecting and ready to receive a Word from the Lord. The day came to hear Ed speak. Jeff and I went with expectant hearts, and the Lord gave us exactly what we needed to hear. - It's funny. We so often think we NEED something, when in reality we WANT something. God may not always give us what we WANT, but he ALWAYS gives us what we NEED. Having said that, the Word the Ed spoke over mine and Jeff's life wasn't what we wanted to hear, it's what we needed to hear. 

Jeff's word was to keep persevering with work. That he is on the brink of success and not to stop. Don't trust anyone, trust God, and God will send the right people into his life that he can trust. - It was a wonderful Word for Jeff. He needed to hear that...and as weird as it sounds, I did too. I needed to know that Jeff's business was where God wanted him to be. And it is. I'm so excited for Jeff! I know he is accomplishing what the Lord wants him to accomplish. 

The Word I received was that I'm very talented, and can pick up anything. That I'm very organized and can get things done quickly, and that I should be working with Jeff (haha!). The more exciting part of the word I received was that God knew I wasn't planning on having kids anytime soon, but God is. That I am going to be a wonderful mother, I wont have to worry about finances, and that our children will not get in the way of my success or doing things that I want to do. - That word from God wasn't what I wanted, it was what I needed. I needed to hear that it was time for babies, that I would be a great mom, and that I would still be able to do the things I want to do. The last couple of years that Jeff and I have been married, I had developed a fear of having children. I was scared I wouldn't be a good mom, that my children would hold me back, and that they would be brought into a world full of evil. If you know me, you know that I've always wanted to be a mother...all my life, as a child, as a teenager, and a young adult. So to have a fear of having children was not me. Thankfully, the Lord spoke through Ed Traut, and gave me the prophetic word I needed. It completely resonated within my heart, and I felt complete peace. 

So, officially, Jeff and I will begin trying to have our first baby in June of this year. My fear is gone, and now I'm just excited to grow our family! Look out world! Another Sparrow is on the way!

Okay...back to moving to Orange County.

After receiving those words, we started praying and thinking about whether or not to move back to California. One day we decided to visit with our two closest couple friend's in Orange County. We had some time with both couples separately, and it was wonderful to catch up on life, and hear about what was going on with theirs. Throughout our conversations, both Jeff and I started to feel a pull in our hearts towards Orange County again. Neither of us knew what the other was feeling until after our time with our friends. On our way back to my parents house, which is where we were staying, we told each other how we felt.

Jeff and I didn't want to rush into moving back, so we decided to give ourselves two weeks to pray and seek the Lord on the whole situation. I mean, can I just say that we had A LOT of changes going on in our lives! in two months the Lord had revealed things to us that we had been wondering about for a long time. I guess we just needed to be out of our environment in order to hear God's voice. 

After the two weeks were up, we knew that we were supposed to move back home. Home is Orange County.

All in all, we are both so excited for this time in our lives right now. God is growing us. Growing our faith, growing our family, growing us individually, and we couldn't be more happy! The Lord always knows what's best for us, and we are so thankful that we have our Heavenly Father as our friend.

-Em

Metamorphosis

I owe ya'll an update...majorly.

 A lot of changes have been going on in mine and Jeff's lives recently. It all seems so quick, but at the same time the changes are things we've been praying about for months.

So, we are back in California, and have been for about a month. Originally we had planned to visit family and friends and head back out traveling. Now we are renting a one bedroom, one bath apartment in Orange County. Yes, I know...what?! Let me back up...

Starting last year, I had been wondering what I was supposed to do with my life. I haven't worked in about two years, and I'm blessed to have a husband that provides so that I don't have to. However, I felt like I was going nowhere with my purpose in life. Every time I thought about volunteering, or joining a movement, or group, I would find an excuse not to. Unfortunately, I felt as though I couldn't put any effort into anything unless I knew it was what I was called to do. A very 'extremist' attitude, for sure. So I started praying. I prayed a lot. Everyday I would ask the Lord to reveal to me what I was supposed to do. Everyone else seemed to know what their talents and abilities were, except for me. Well, it seemed as though my prayers were going unanswered and I was lost in this fog of 'who am I', and 'what's my purpose in life'. I've been there many times, but let me tell you...God ALWAYS pulls through.

That's when Jeff and I decided we would travel this year...we took months in preparation, selling our things, planning our trips, etc. I was so excited! I felt like I was doing something important, again. It was all I could think about. Traveling.

As it came closer and closer to our travel time, I continued to pray for the Lord to reveal to me my purpose. The more I prayed, the more I felt like the Lord was telling me that while Jeff and I were out traveling, God would speak my to heart and answer all my questions. So we traveled. We started from California, drove to Las Vegas, from Vegas we drove to Utah, and from Utah we drove to Denver in order to fly out to New Orleans. We also went to Georgia, and Florida.

While driving from Las Vegas to Utah, Jeff and I were talking about travel, life, and regular things. All of a sudden in the middle of our conversation, I felt the Lord speak directly to my heart and say, "Go to Bethel." It was so strong, that I stopped Jeff in the middle of what he was saying, and said, "I need to go to Bethel." - For those of you who don't know what Bethel is, it's a Christian School of Worship. It's located in Redding, California and is really well known for their worship program. They are also a college, and you can choose between a 1-3 year program. It's a fantastic school for those who want to be in the worship or ministry field. - There have been several other times in my life where I felt the Lord speak directly to my heart, and I knew without any doubt that it was Him. To name a couple, one was to move to the Central Coast of California. Which I did. I stopped partying, changed my ways, rededicated my life to the Lord, and met my husband. The second was when I was in Kenya, Africa on my first mission trip and the Lord told me that Jeff would be my husband...after only knowing him for 4 days. Both of those are huge decisions that have changed my life dramatically, and I'm so thankful for the Lord's leading.

Needless to say, I knew I had to listen. That night I started researching Bethel and I found out that their worship program was in the Summer. I had one month to apply in order to be accepted. I applied and was accepted, and will now be going to the Bethel School of Worship in July of this year. It's an all day, 11 day program where I will learn how to write songs, sing better, let the Lord guide me, etc. I'm so excited!!! I'm not sure where the Lord will take me after the program, but I know that He told me go, so I'm going.  He answered my prayers, and gave me my purpose. 

I believe that the Lord will take you out of your environment in order to speak to your heart. We often get so distracted by what's going on in our lives, our worries, our doubts, our confusions, that we don't give God the time or space He wants in order to let us know what's up. Sometimes we just need to be quiet so He can speak. 

I don't believe that mine and Jeff's travels are done. I believe we still have a lot of travels in our future, near and far. However, I do believe that what Jeff and I thought was our great idea of traveling, was God pushing us in the direction we needed to be in order for Him to speak to our hearts.

This is all just the beginning of the metamorphosis, I have other exciting things to tell you, but you'll have to tune into my blog tomorrow to read them. ;D

Psalm 18:30- "God's way is perfect. All the Lord's promises prove true. He is shield for all who look to him for protection."

Isaiah 55:8-9, 12- "My Plans aren't your plans, nor are your ways my ways, says the Lord. Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my plans than your plans. Yes, you will go out with celebration, and you will be brought back in peace. Even the mountains and hills will burst into song before you; all the trees of the field will clap their hands."

-Em